LIFE....

OK SOOOO I AM NOW READI TO EXPLAIN MY ASPECT OF LIFE BECAUSE I AM LERNING THAT EVERYONE LOOKS AT IT TOTALLY DIFFERENT THEN ME.....I LAUGH AT LIFE..I DONT THINK IT IS A JOKE BUT I DONT BELIEVE THAT A PERSON SHOULD WALK AROUND MEAN MUGGING EVERYDAY....LIKE I AM VERY FRIENDLY I WILL TALK TO ANYONE ABOUT ANYTHING BUT LIKE I WALKED AROUND AND I FRONT....I AM LAUGHIN ALL THE TIME BECAUSE I AM TRYING TO HIDE THE HURT THAT I FEEL....I AM HURTING EVERY DAY BOUT JUS THINGS.....LIKE I TRY TO FACE THE THINGS THAT I HAVE BEEN THRU IN MY PAST I CANT SOO I HAVE TRIED TO FORGET THEM BUT I CAN NOT DO THAT....BUT IT IS AFFECTING ME... I THINK TO DEEP INTO SITUATIONS AND I AM ALWAYS FINDING A WAY TO RELATE EVERYTHING THAT I GO THRU TO SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED IN MY PAST...AND I KNOW THAT I AM WRONG FOR DOING THAT BUT I DONT KNO HOW TO GET OUT THE BOX...ITS LIKE I AM SITTIN IN THIS BIG ASS BOX...I HAVE JUST ENOUGH TO GET BY BUT LIKE I CAN NOT GET OUT...I SIT IN THE BOX AND I DEAL WITH THE SAME SHIT EVERYDAY....LIKE I LOOK AT THE SAME WALLS EVERYDAY....AND ITS LIKE I WANNA JUST STAND UP ND GET OUT THE BOX BUT I CANT SEEM TO DO IT...THATS HOW I FEEL ABOUT LIFE....LIKE I HAVE BEEN THRU SOO MUCH AND SOO I LIKE I HAD TO GROW UP FAST....ONCE I HIT THEM TEENAGE YEARS SHITTT JUST WENT ON SUPER GROW UP MODE....BUT LIKE I MEAN I JUST WANNA LET SHIT GOOO...IDK I AM GETTIN FRUSTRATED I CANT GET ALL MY THOUGHTS OUT...MODEL