GOIN TO SLEEP TO DREAM

BABI I AM ABOUT TO GO TO SLEEP TO DREAM OF YOU...DREAM ABOUT THE BLESSING THAT I NOW HAVE IN MY LIFE...YOU ARE TRULY A BLESSING. LIKE YOU BEEN IN MY LIFE BEFORE YOU WAS ACTUALLY IN MY LIFE AND LIKE THAT MAKES ME LOVE YOU MORE....YOU ALWAYS SEEM TO BE ON MY SIDE EVEN WHEN YOUR MAD....YOU ALWAYS GOT MY BACK....EVEN IF YOU DONT KNOW WHATS ACTUALLY GOING ON I KNOW THAT I CAN COUNT ON YOU....YOU SAID TO ME THE OTHER NIGHT BABY I AM PROUD OF YOU.....THAT MEANT SOOOO MUCH TO ME...NO ONE EVER LETS ME KNOW THAT THEY AE PROUD OF ME BUT THEY ARE QUICK TO DOG ME OUT WHEN I DISGRACE THEM.....SOOO THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME KNOW THAT I AM DOING SOMETHING RIGHT BECAUSE I AT LEAST GOT ONE PERSON TO BE PROUD OF ME.....UM AGAIN I AM SOOO SORRY ABOUT YOUR VISIT I WISH IT WAS BETTER....I HOPE YOU HAD FUN WHEN AT LEAST SPENDING TIME WITH ME.....IF YOU NEVER WANT TO COME BACK IT IS COOL I DO UNDERSTAND BUT JUST KNOW I ONLY WANTED YOU TO HAVE FUN....BUT I AM STILL GLAD YOU CAME...IT WAS THE BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD WAKING UP NEXT TO YOU....HAVING YOU RAG ON HOW BAD MY HAIR LOOKS IN THE MORNING MADE ME LAUGH SOO MUCH INSIDE....EVEN THOUGH YOU NOT A GOOD SPADES PLAYER YOU STILL WAS ALWAYS BE MY PARTNER IN CRIME.....LOL....BUT BABY I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH AND KNOW THAT I TAKE NO ONE WORD OVER YOURS...I HOPE YOU HAVE SEEN THAT OVER THE LAST 2 WEEKS.....OH AND KNOW EVEN THOUGH EVERYONE WANTS TO TELL YOU THAT YOU TREAT ME LIKE SHIT I DONT THINK THAT. YOU TREAT ME HOW A GRIL IS SUPPOSE TO TREAT HER GIRLFRIEND SOOO EVEN IF EVERYONE IS AGAINST US WE GOTTA BE STRONG WITHIN OUR OWN...AS LONG AS YOU CONTINUE TO MAKE MEHAPPY THEN WE WILL BE COOL ON MY END...I HOPE THAT I AM MAKING YOU JUST AS HAPPY THOUGH....UMMM I ONLY WANT THE BEST FOR YOU...SOO IF I AM NOT THE BEST YOU CN LET ME KNO...LOL BUT ANYWAY I LOVE UUUUUUU TO DEATH....GET AT ME BABI.....MODEL

MINDING YOUR OWN FUCKKIN BUSINESS

MY QUESTION TO THE WORLD IS WHY DO PEOPLE HAVE SUCH A HARD TIME MINDING THEIR OWN BUSINESS...LIKE THEY BE SO WORRIED ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE SHIT THAT THEY CAN'T EVEN PAY THEY FUCKING BILLS ON TIME I MEAN BE FUCKING FOR REAL...STAY OUTTA MINE AND WORRY ABOUT YOURS.....LIKE IF I AM IN A RELATIONSHIP AND I DONT FEEL LIKE I AM GETTING TREATED LIKE SHIT THEN STOP TRYING TO PLANT THAT SHIT IN MY MOTHER FUCKING HEAD BECAUSE IT IS NOT FUCKING WORKING....I HAVE TO FIND OUT SHIT ON MY OWN BEFORE I CAN TRULY UNDERSTAND...AND IF WHAT YOU ARE SAYIN IS TRUE IN THE LONG RUN YOU CAN GLADLY SAY I TOLD YOU SOOO BUT YOU TELLING ME WAT I SHOULD AND SHOULDNT DO IS ONLY MAKING ME DO THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT YOU ARE TELLING ME TO DO....YOU TALKING ABOUT MY GIRL TREAT ME LIKE SHIT MANNN YOUR FUCKING GIRL IS MEETING PEOPLE OFF THE INTERNET AND GIVING THEM HER PHONE NUMBER WHILE YOU OUT THERE BUSTING YOUR ASS TRYING TO MAKE A GOOD LIFE FOR HER......STUPID ASS NIGGAS...LIKE BE FOR REAL....I KNOW TO MUCH SHIT ABOUT THE PEOPLE THAT KEEP TALKING SHIT...PLEASE BELIEVE......SOMEONE MOM CANT AND STILL CANT PAY FOR HER SCHOOLING SOO SHE CHANGING SCHOOLS BECAUSE SHE BROKE....HER MOM CANT TAKE CARE OF HER.....UMMMM THE OTHER ONE YOUR ON WELFARE...YOU MAKE 5.15 AND HOUR...YOU PAY NO FUCKIN BILLS AT ALL SOOO JUST SOO YOU KNOW YOU ARE NOT A GROWN ASS WOMAN....YOU STILLA FUCKING BABY BECAUSE YOU GOT SOMEONE PAYING FOR ALL YOUR SHIT......LIKE BE FORREAL...THE TWO MAIN HATERS LMAOOOO YOUR RENT WAS DUE...PLEASE PAY IT THANK YOU.....YOUR HOUSE AINT GOT SHIT IN IT....YOU DONT GOT SHIT BUT A BOX OF BLACKS AND A BEER.....WTF IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE....BOTH OF YALL UGLY WALKIN AROUND THINKIN THEY CUTE...SRRY ARMY FATIGUE WAS PLAYED OUT HOW MANY YEARS AGO...AND THE OTHER YOU GET YOUR FUCKIN KIDS BACK BEFORE YOU EVEN ATTEMPT TO COME AT ME LIKE A MOTHER....LMAOOOOO WHAT DA HELL...YALL ALL WORRIED ABOUT WHATS GOING ON IN MY LIFE WHEN YALL AINT GOT SHIT YALL SELVES....EVERYONE HAS THEY ISSUES NO ONE IS PERFECT...AND AS YOU CAN SEE I MENTIONED NO NAMES BECAUSE I AINT STOOPING THAT LOW BUT CERTAIN PEOPLE KNOW WHO I AM TALKING ABOUT....PLEASE STAY THE FUCK OUTTA MY BUSINESS...I DONT BE IN YOURS...I DONT CARE ABOUT YOURS....I AM A GROWN ASS WOMAN...I BASICALLY DO AS I PLEASE WHEN I PLEASE...SOOO IF I WANT TO STAY IN MY RELATIONSHIP THEN I WILL...IF I WANNA BE LAZY THEN I WILL....BUT ON THE REAL YALL BITCHES LOOKING REAL FUCKING STUPID BECAUSE EVERYDAY THAT YALL ATTEMPT TO BREAK ME.... YOU MAY THINK YOU HAVE SUCCEEDED BECAUSE I GO TO SLEEP LOOKIN SAD BUT TRUST EVERDAY I WAKE UP WITH A SMILE ON MY FACE.....EVERYDAY I WALK AROUND HAPPY...YOU WILL NEVER EVER BREAK ME...SO STOP TRYING.....ITS ME AGAINST THE WORLD...I CAME IN THIS BITCH ALONE AND IM GOING OUT ALONE...IF YOU AINT DOWN TRYIN TO HELP ME BETTER MYSELF...AND TRULY HELP ME BETTER MYSELF THEN U GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY LIFE NOW....AND THAT TRULLY MEAN EVERYONE I DONT CARE WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE....I AM SOOO SERIOUS BECAUSE THE MORE PEOPLE I ALLOW IN MY LIFE THE MORE FUCKED UP IT GETS SOOO PLEASE ELIMINATE YOURSELF NOW BECAUSE IF I GETT TO CUTTING NIGGAZ OUT A OUT PEOPLE GONNA HATE ME....BUT THEN AGAIN I DONT CARE....SOOOO PLEASE IMMA SAY THIS ONE MORE TIME...I AM HAPPY WHERE MY LIFE IS I AM HAPPY IN THE RELATIONSHIP I AM IN BASICALLY I AM JUST A HAPPY MUTHA FUKER.....SO PLEASE MIND YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS BECAUSE THIS SHIT IS PLAYE OUT.....MODEL MANNNN NOT MODEL FUCKING THIS PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUCEMENT HAS COME FROM CHARDAY....GET Y LIVES TOGETHER PEOPLE.

UPDATE ON LIFE

OK SO I HAVENT REALLY POSTED ANYTHING NEW LATELY ABOUT WATS GOING ON WITH ME....WELL A LOT OF SHIT HAS BEEN HAPPEN...WHAT WOULD MY LIFE BE WITHOUT DRAMA....LMAOOO I TRY TO RUN FROM IT BUT IT ALWAYS SEEM TO FIND ME AND KNOCK ON MY DOOR....OK SOOOO LEMME START BY SAYING HEYYYYY TO EVERYONE AND MS. ZOE STRAUSS I HAVE BEEN CALLING YOUR ASS ALL WEEK...AND HAVE YOU ANSWERED NO...WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON...SOOOO SINCE YOUR NOT ANSWERING IMMA LET YOU KNO.....WELLL FIRST ME AND MY BOO ARE STILL GOING STRONG...YES I KNOW YOU DONT KNOW WHO I AM TALKKIN ABOUT...WELL YOU SHOULD IF YOU READ MY BLOG RIGHT...BUT ANYWAY THE ONE I AM TALKIN ABOUT IN THE WE GOTTA MAKE IT WORK BLOG.....OMG ZOE SHE IS AMAZING...YES SHE PISSES ME OFF HELLA CRAZY AT TIMES BUT YOOOO SHE JUST HAD ME ON THE PHONE DYING...SHE IS SUCH A SWEETHEART...WELLL ANYWHO SHE CAME OUT TO VISIT ME LAST WEEK...NEW YORK TO COLLEGE PARK SHE CAME....I WAS SOO HAPPY THAT SHE DID COME I MEAN WE HAD BEEN HAVING OUR ISSUES BUT LIKE I WAS SOOO HAPPY TO FINALLY KNOW THAT SHE WAS HERE....WELL SHE CAME COMPLETE DISASTER...LIKE I FEEL SOO BAD BECAUSE SHE DIDNT TELL ME UNTIL SHE LEFT THAT MY ROOMATES TREATED HER LIKE SHIT....THEY DONT READ THIS BUT IF THEY DID OH WELL...THEY TREATED HER LIKE SHIT AND MADE HER FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE....LIKE SHE TOLD ME THAT I FELT SOO BAD...LIKE THEY WAS ALWAYS TELLING HER SHE TREAT ME LIKE SHIT....LISTEN EVERY RELATIONSHIP HAS THERE ISSUES BUT I AM VERY HAPPY...AND TRUST A BLOG IS COMING ABOUT PEOPLE MINDING THEIR OWN BUSINESS.....BUT ANYWHO THEY WAS SOO MEAN TO HER...SO I AM VERY PISSED BECAUSE THAT IS MY BABY....AND I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN TREAT HER LIKE SHIT.......BUT THATS MY BOO BABI AND I LOVE HER....KATA I KNOW YOU GONNA READ THIS BABI I LOVE U AND I AM SORRY.....BUT ANYWHOOOOO BACK TO WHATS BEEN GOIN ON WIT ME.....UMMM I GOT TWO JOB INTERVIEWS ONE TOMORROW AND ONE NEXT WEEK...I CANT WAIT SOOO PLEASE PRAY FOR ME SOOO THAT HOPEFULLY I GET ONE OR MAYBE EVEN BOTH.....UMMMM WHAT ELSE I HAVE BEEN CHILLING.....LIKE I THINK MY HEALTH IS REGRESSIN A LIL BUT OH WELL I WILL GO TO THE DOCTOR.....BUT UMMMM I HAD A BLAST FROM THE PAST TODAY....REMEMBER THE GIRL WHO PICTURE I SHOWED YOU WHEN WE WAS GETTING READY FOR 1-95....THE SCARY ONE...WELL SHE AND I TALKED TODAY....SCARY YET FUNNY...WE GOT CLOSURE TO OUR SHIT AND WE JUST CHIT CHATTED.....BUT IT WAS AWKWARD BECAUSE I WANTED TO KEEP CALLIN HER A DIFFERENT NAME I HAD TO KEEP CATCHING MYSELF...BUT SHE GOIN TO BE IN ATLANTA IN TWO WEEKS.....(KATA I KNOW DO IT AND I DIE LMAOOOO) BUT I DONT THINK WE GONNA BE HANGIN OUT BECAUSE SHE HURT MY FEELINGS.....BUT ANYWHOOO THINGS HAVENT BEEN GOING TO GOOD IN MY HOUSE.....BUT YOU KNOW ME I PUT UP WITH ANYTHING.....BEST FRIEND IS GREAT....IM SUPPOSE TO BE COMING UP THERE TO HELP HER MOM HANDLE SOME FOSTER CARE THINGS THIS MONTH SOMETIME.....UMMM ADOPTED MOM AND ME ARE REALLI COOL RIGHT NOW....SHE TOLD ME I CAN MOVE HOME....HEHEHEHE. BIO MOM ACTUALLY SENT ME MONEY.....BUT THEN THRU IT IN MY FACE SOOO WE NOT REALLY SPEAKIN...LIKE WE IS BUT WE NOT BUT WE IS...YOU KNOW HOW SHE DOES....LMAOOOOO BUT OTHER THAN THAT IM JUST CHARDAY..BEING ME BEING A CLOWN...I KINDA WANNA MOVE BACK UP NORTH....BUT I KNOW IMMA HEAR A SPEECH SOOOO IF I DONT GET A JOB BEFORE MY BEST FRIEND BUYS MY TICKET TO PHILADELPHIA IM COMING HOME FOR GOOD...BUT IF I GET ONE AND I AM PRAYING TO GOD I DO IMMA STAY OUT HERE...BUT I THINK THATS IT.....MS. STRAUSS I LOVE U AND I AM STILL WAITIN FOR A COPY OF MY GOD DAMN MOVIE...HOWS THE BOOK? HOW LYNN BLOOM?MOM? SAVANNAH?CHRISTINE?LAURA (FROM THE SIXERS)? I THINK THATSIT IF I FORGOT ANY1...OH WAIT HOW IS ALL INTERNS? BUT UMMM I AM GOOD GET AT ME.....OH I CHANGED YAHOO.....LETUSBE063008@YAHOO.COM.BYE LOVE U......

JUST THROW ME IN THE TRASH...DON'T MISS...JUST BALL ME UP....YOU HAVE USED ME TILL THERE WAS NO LONGER AND SPACE LEFT.

WOW!!!!!!! HOW DID YOU MISS THE CAN????? YOU REALLY SUCK.....HAVEN'T YOU USED ME ENOUGH? YOU KNOW HAVE LEFT ME OPEN TO WAY MORE PAIN....PEOPLE CAN JUST STEP ALL OVER ME.

OUCHHHHH OUCHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! STOP STEPPING ON ME....YOU ARE HURTING ME.

PLEASE TELL THESE PEOPLE TO STOP...WHY COULDNT YOU JUST MAKE IT IN THE CAN....BUT NOW EVERYONE IS JUST STEPPING ON ME....THE BAD PART IS THAT THEY ARE NOT EVEN NOTICING.....AM I INVISIBLE???

WHY ME?? I WAS THERE TILL THE END....ANYTIME YOU NEEDED ME....PLEASE TELL THEM TO JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.

IT'S KIND OF FUCKED UP WHEN LIFE MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE AN OLD USED PEICE OF PAPER.