A LETTA TO THE MAN I CALLED DADDI

I DREAMED OF THE DAY I WOULD MEET YOU. THE DAY I WOULD LOOK YOU IN THE FACE AND SAY "HEY DAD". WHEN I COULD BRAG TO MY FRIENDS ABOUT HOW OVER PROTECTIVE U WERE OR HOW COOL YOU WERE i JUST WANTED MY FATHER. I WANTED TO HAVE YOU IN MI LIFE SO BAD. tHAT DAY AT 11:16 AM THAT YOU CALLED MY PHONE I HAD THOUGHT MY SEARCH WAS OVER. THAT THE DREAM HAD FINALLY BECAME A REALITY AND THAT FOR ONCE I WAS COMPLETE. THE FIRST TIME I MET YOU, YOU WERE PISSY DRUNK YET I SAID IMMA GIVE YOU ANOTHER CHANCE AND I DID. I WAS ON YOUR SIDE FROM DAY 1. BUT THE KEY WORD IN THAT SENTENCE WAS THE WORD WAS. I AM NO LONGER ON YOUR TEAM. I WOULD SPIT ON YOUR JERSEYS. YOU ARE THE COMPLETE OPPOISTE OF WAT I DREAMED. I WANTED ME A STRONG DADDI TO KEEP DRAMA AWAY AND WAT DID YOU DO. YOU BROUGHT RIGHT TO ME. I WANTED YOU TO PROTECT ME FROM LIARS BUT YOU WERE THE MAIN ONE. JOHN YOUR A FUCKIN LIAR AND I HAVE BEGUN TO BELIEVE THAT YOU NO LONGER KNOW THAT YOU ARE LYING. THAT IS BOTH SICK AND SAD AT THE SAME TIME. I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND YOU. WAT DID I DO TO YOU?????

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1.) DRUG HABIT---I WISH THAT YOU WOULD HAVE TOLD ME. I HAVE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH SHITT WITH MY MOTHER AND DRUGS THAT IF YOU WOULD HAVE TOLD ME I WOULD HAVE BEEN MORE LOW-KEY. BUT YOU KEPT IT FROM ME AND I HAVE BEEN COMPLETLY HONEST WITH YOU. AND TO THINK I WAS SCARED TO TELL YOU THAT I WAS GAY SHITTTT U OUT DID ME ON THAT ONE. I PROBABLY WOULDNT OF RUSHED MY COMING UP HERE BUT I WOULD HAVE ACCEPTED IT.

2.) STEALING MY MONEY----KARMA IS A BITCH BUT DAMN. THE ONLY MONEY I HAD. I WORKED FOR IT AND YOU TOOK IT. THAT WAS SOO SOO LAME. ALL U HAD TO DO WAS ASK. BUT THAT IS MATERIALISTIC SOOO I AM I COULD CARE LESS BUT IS THE PRINCIPLE.

3.) FOOD STAMPS--- YOU PUT US IN A SUPER JAM BUT LIKE THE MONEY IT AINT THAT U SPENT THEM ITS THE PRINCIPLE.

4.)THE WALK AND THE LIES ABOUT THE CARD---I TOLD YOU THAT I HAVE ISSUES WITH MY HIP AND AT THE CURRENT TIME I DONT HAVE MEDICAL TO GO TO THE DOCTOR SO I CAN NOT DO NOTHIN TO MESS WITH THEM AND YOU MADE ME WALK ALL THE WAY DOWN TO WHERE I DONT KNO FOR U ONLY TO BE LYING. YOU MADE ME WALK LIKE A MILE. AND NOW I AM HAVING ISUES WITHT THEM TO WHERE IT HURT WHEN I WALK. YOU PUT MY HEALTH AT RISK AND YOU DIDNT EVEN CARE. YOU DONT CARE THAT I CANT WALK RIGHT NOW. JUSTAS LONG AS YOU KEPT UP YOUR LIE. BUT EVEN WORSE YOU LIED TO MY FACE. HOW LOW CAN YOU GET? I ASKED DID YOU USE THEM. DO YOU KNO WHAT YOU TOLD ME??? "WHY LIE NOW" AND I BELIEVED YOU.... SO STUPID OF ME. OH WAIT YUO LEFT $.24. SOMEONE GIVE HIM THE MAN OF THE YEAR AWARD. MAN FUCK YOU.

5.) LASTLY THE BIGGEST ONE IF YOU THOUGHT I WASN'T YOUR DAUGHTER WHY BRING ME UP HERE. fOR YOU TO SAY THAT I AM THE NEXT NIGGA BABY. THAT SHIT CRUSHED EVERYTHING THAT I HAD FOR YOU. THROUGH ALL THIS I STILL TRIED TO FIND LIGHT AND SMILE IN YA NAME. BUT NOW MAN GO AHEAD. A WASTE OF TIME. YOU JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. THANK YOU FOR NOT HELPING ME ADD. THANK YOU FOR ADDING HEART ACHE BUT SINCE I AM THE NEST MAN BABY DON'T WRITE ME BACK. NO WAIT CAN YOU STEER ME IN THE DIRECTION TO MY REAL DADDY, A REAL MAN NOT NO LITTLE BITCH. BECAUSE THATS ALL YOU ARE.

BUT I AM ABOUT TO END THIS SHIT BECAUSE YOU LUCKY I GAVE YOU A LITTLE BIT OF TIME. THANK YOU FOR NOTHING. THANK YOU FOR THE EMBARRASSMENT OF MAKING FRONT PAGE NEWS. AND THANK YOU FOR THE LIES AND HEART ACHE. IF THEY LET YOU OUT AND YOU COME BACK I AM LEAVING. I AHTE YOU. MY PLAY DAD (WHO IS ACTUALLY A FEMALE) GETS MORE LOVE AND RESPECT THAN YOU WILL EVER GET! ANOTHER FUCKED UP PARENT ADDED TO MY LIFE THANK YOU. BUT JUST SO YOU KNOW I MADE IT 19YRS WITHOUT THE BOTH OF YOU PUSSIES AND TRUST I WILL MAKE IT. LAME ASS. I DO HOPE YOU GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER BECAUSE MY SISTERS AND YOUR GIRL NEED YOU. BUT AS FOR ME FUCK YOU.

I STILL GOTS LOVE FOR YOU BUT I CANT FUCK WITH YOU
CHARDAY